I do.

Over the last few days I have tossed around ideas for possibly keeping the video aspect of the trip going. I really enjoy the interaction I get when asking people questions in front of the camera. It causes me to think about the things im asking just as much as the people im filming, unfortunately after doing a few interviews and little films recently, I think it is going to be just too hard, without a laptop to edit on it just becomes too cumbersome to try and upload off standard internet connections.

But that said the other day I interviewed a guy called Seva, he is one of a group of people involved in a community project called Soulmakers. Now I have really tried to upload the video because some of the things that came out of that conversation were just great.

Seva talked about just doing, not thinking about it any more but doing and the responsibility that comes from making that choice.
Most of you may not know that I did not really want to leave Australia to come on this trip. After returning home after 4 years, I realised how much I loved being home and that I had good friends there. I didnt get reverse culture shock, far from from it, I realised how lucky I am to have such place to return to. Im not trying to compare this against anyone but this is how it felt for me. So when I had to leave for India, it was not with as much excietemnt as I might have had at one time. I had these feelings when I left Moscow, and they were confirmed when I arrived here that I have travelled so much, I have seen amazing things, met wonderful people and lived a life that I should be and am so thankful for but I have also had so many of the same conversations, been in so many places and after a while it just becomes all the same. Sometimes I just dont have anything to say to people, but i know that I have genuine care for others and love of communicating. To tie it together, I had come to the conclusion that I have a head full of theory but now is the time to apply it, not for anyone else but for me. To finally do. And if what I am doing is right, it will come out, it will be seen. When I think about this I become more content which is a feeling that has been missing for some time in my life. So, when I hear Seva talk about this to say these exact words, it was just another confirmation, that there is direction in life and I can grasp it right now.

I could, if I chose, continue the life of the traveler indefinitely but what joy would it bring me, I will continue this journey in India and definitely make the most of it but i know, that I am ready to invest and to take on responsibility. Its the difference between reading a book on life and actually living.

Much love
-Ben